I wanted to see what's inside of me, and I saw the world staring right back.
Wednesday, October 29, 2003
the lotus
cascades its petals
to its sides
touching the water below
petals open in fullness
facing straight above
in sheer love of its blue sky
in adoration of its expanse
and all life flying by
the sun, moon and stars
and all that was meant to be up there
and all that wasn't meant to be reached...
and that is all it could do
while it waits to wither
no rain can taunt it
no sun can blind it
but to love
IS
all it could do.
cascades its petals
to its sides
touching the water below
petals open in fullness
facing straight above
in sheer love of its blue sky
in adoration of its expanse
and all life flying by
the sun, moon and stars
and all that was meant to be up there
and all that wasn't meant to be reached...
and that is all it could do
while it waits to wither
no rain can taunt it
no sun can blind it
but to love
IS
all it could do.
Don't cling to anything and don't reject anything. Let come what comes, and accomodate yourself to that, whatever it is. If good mental images arise, that is fine. If bad mental images arise, that is fine, too. Look on all of it as equal, and make yourself comfortable with whatever happens. Don't fight with what you experience, just observe it all mindfully.
-Bhante Henepola Gunaratana, "Mindfulness in Plain English"
Copyright Wisdom Publications 2001. Reprinted from "Daily
-Bhante Henepola Gunaratana, "Mindfulness in Plain English"
Copyright Wisdom Publications 2001. Reprinted from "Daily
My song tonight
croons of surrender
to end the toil
but not embrace defeat
the war in my mind
has taken my muse
and sacrificed it to the cause
just so I would have
this fragile peace
as burning the desire is
to conquer a chamber in your kingdom
I yearn for forgiveness
more than anything
for insisting on knowing you
and asking for too much
you give, for my sake
I know not why, for yours
I can only pray
that when all the dust has settled
and all the woes have gone
I can find you still
although not in the same field
still with a soul to share
and song to sing
croons of surrender
to end the toil
but not embrace defeat
the war in my mind
has taken my muse
and sacrificed it to the cause
just so I would have
this fragile peace
as burning the desire is
to conquer a chamber in your kingdom
I yearn for forgiveness
more than anything
for insisting on knowing you
and asking for too much
you give, for my sake
I know not why, for yours
I can only pray
that when all the dust has settled
and all the woes have gone
I can find you still
although not in the same field
still with a soul to share
and song to sing
IT’S MY WORLD TOO !
Theme Song of “Mission: Green Rock”
Some days, I feel the world’s too hot
My mind’s so thirsty, I don’t know why
Some nights, I dream of forests burning,
Oceans drying…and children cry.
Why do you take more than you need?
Why don’t you just stop and believe?
Someone like us can make a difference
If that someone takes the dare
The planet’s running out on us
Some people don’t seem to care
Well, it’s my world too, ‘gotta save this Rock!
It’s my world too, ‘gonna cut the talk
It’s my world too, ‘gonna change the way
My future is happening here and now
Gotta save what I can of this world somehow
No time to mess up!
It’s time to save up!
You better! You know why?
Cause it’s my world too!
Someday, I’d like my kids to swim
In the same clear river I used to see
Someday, I’d like them to see the whales
And dolphins in the great blue sea
Sometimes we don’t know what we love
Till someone takes it away from us
Someone like us can make a difference
If that someone takes the dare
The planet’s running out on us
Some people don’t seem to care
Well, it’s my world too, ‘gotta save this Rock!
It’s my world too, ‘gonna cut the talk
It’s my world too, ‘gonna change the way
My future is happening here and now
Gotta save what I can of this world somehow
No time to mess up!
It’s time to save up!
You better! You know why?
Cause it’s my world too!
Theme Song of “Mission: Green Rock”
Some days, I feel the world’s too hot
My mind’s so thirsty, I don’t know why
Some nights, I dream of forests burning,
Oceans drying…and children cry.
Why do you take more than you need?
Why don’t you just stop and believe?
Someone like us can make a difference
If that someone takes the dare
The planet’s running out on us
Some people don’t seem to care
Well, it’s my world too, ‘gotta save this Rock!
It’s my world too, ‘gonna cut the talk
It’s my world too, ‘gonna change the way
My future is happening here and now
Gotta save what I can of this world somehow
No time to mess up!
It’s time to save up!
You better! You know why?
Cause it’s my world too!
Someday, I’d like my kids to swim
In the same clear river I used to see
Someday, I’d like them to see the whales
And dolphins in the great blue sea
Sometimes we don’t know what we love
Till someone takes it away from us
Someone like us can make a difference
If that someone takes the dare
The planet’s running out on us
Some people don’t seem to care
Well, it’s my world too, ‘gotta save this Rock!
It’s my world too, ‘gonna cut the talk
It’s my world too, ‘gonna change the way
My future is happening here and now
Gotta save what I can of this world somehow
No time to mess up!
It’s time to save up!
You better! You know why?
Cause it’s my world too!
In my mind
grew a tree of red autumn leaves
that swayed to the strains
of some brooding guitar
rooted in fond memories
that I come back to often
and I wake up smiling
at a life filled with love…
given, taken, refused, given back…
but love in all its forms
have made this tree grow
and now in the orchard
of my faint consciousness
I gaze up at it
with a strange
happiness.
grew a tree of red autumn leaves
that swayed to the strains
of some brooding guitar
rooted in fond memories
that I come back to often
and I wake up smiling
at a life filled with love…
given, taken, refused, given back…
but love in all its forms
have made this tree grow
and now in the orchard
of my faint consciousness
I gaze up at it
with a strange
happiness.
In my solace
i shout at the dark
angry at it for gnawing at my mind
while I fight to make sense
of the things i see....
I used to think
standing my ground
for what I believe and truly feel
will bring me to my fulfillment
While love changes all that
it keeps some things the same
.......that I am alone in this strife
.......that I alone in this life....
.......and no amount of shouting and fighting
will take me halfway
to where I want to be.
i shout at the dark
angry at it for gnawing at my mind
while I fight to make sense
of the things i see....
I used to think
standing my ground
for what I believe and truly feel
will bring me to my fulfillment
While love changes all that
it keeps some things the same
.......that I am alone in this strife
.......that I alone in this life....
.......and no amount of shouting and fighting
will take me halfway
to where I want to be.
Am I supposed to look away
While you look past me
And pretend that one’s eyes do not see
What they wish they could see
When I look in your eyes
I see nothing but defiance
A closed gate that’s painted brightly
Closed windows that invite voyeurs
And you dare to jest
Of how I am at your behest
While I move my world around you
You play me like a game
That you could drop when you get tired
That you come back to when you yearn again
And I need to plead
For you not to kill me as yet
For I am no goblin or orc
That you cannot look at
With kinder eyes
While you look past me
And pretend that one’s eyes do not see
What they wish they could see
When I look in your eyes
I see nothing but defiance
A closed gate that’s painted brightly
Closed windows that invite voyeurs
And you dare to jest
Of how I am at your behest
While I move my world around you
You play me like a game
That you could drop when you get tired
That you come back to when you yearn again
And I need to plead
For you not to kill me as yet
For I am no goblin or orc
That you cannot look at
With kinder eyes
I never sleep without even a tiny light on.
My friends find this strange whenever I sleep over at their houses. I would request for a nightlight, or to leave a table lamp, or the bathroom light on through the night. I just tell them I'm scared of the dark. That's really not the kid inside me, but my grown up mind that is scared of the dark. They would all laugh at me. And I would ask them...
When you're in the dark, and in absolute silence...
what do you think about?
Your day, how it went, who you've talked to and what about?
Why you said something, why you did something, who heard it, who didn't?
Do you pray? Do you dream? Do you talk to yourself?
..or....
do you just enjoy the sheer nothingness? thinking nothing? no worries, no thoughts, no concerns, no lists, no whys, no whos, no wheres.
I used to be scared of being alone in the dark. It's amazing how far I'd go if I turned my mind loose in all this darkness. No direction, no walls, no ups and downs. I'd go really wild and really deep. I'd go really sad and really high. I go beyond myself and forget who I am, and leave that self...actually leave that self, and then look at it from afar. When the lights are turned off, the walls, the ceilings, and floors, all disappear, and I am unleashed...i flow...i scatter...i flourish. I have trouble gathering myself back in one body. My consciousness tries to cover the expanse of this endless nothingness, trying to make sense of it. I fly and I run and i stop and i swim, never-ending. I move...never ending...in circles....non-stop. And I get soooooo tired. More tired that when I'm up, and about moving in the true world.
Lights on!
I would keep it that way. A night light is of course, always nice, it could even be romantic and alluring. For me, it's a need. I need to stay inside this world, and not lose myself again. I might not be able to get back as easily. And yes..I am scared.
My friends find this strange whenever I sleep over at their houses. I would request for a nightlight, or to leave a table lamp, or the bathroom light on through the night. I just tell them I'm scared of the dark. That's really not the kid inside me, but my grown up mind that is scared of the dark. They would all laugh at me. And I would ask them...
When you're in the dark, and in absolute silence...
what do you think about?
Your day, how it went, who you've talked to and what about?
Why you said something, why you did something, who heard it, who didn't?
Do you pray? Do you dream? Do you talk to yourself?
..or....
do you just enjoy the sheer nothingness? thinking nothing? no worries, no thoughts, no concerns, no lists, no whys, no whos, no wheres.
I used to be scared of being alone in the dark. It's amazing how far I'd go if I turned my mind loose in all this darkness. No direction, no walls, no ups and downs. I'd go really wild and really deep. I'd go really sad and really high. I go beyond myself and forget who I am, and leave that self...actually leave that self, and then look at it from afar. When the lights are turned off, the walls, the ceilings, and floors, all disappear, and I am unleashed...i flow...i scatter...i flourish. I have trouble gathering myself back in one body. My consciousness tries to cover the expanse of this endless nothingness, trying to make sense of it. I fly and I run and i stop and i swim, never-ending. I move...never ending...in circles....non-stop. And I get soooooo tired. More tired that when I'm up, and about moving in the true world.
Lights on!
I would keep it that way. A night light is of course, always nice, it could even be romantic and alluring. For me, it's a need. I need to stay inside this world, and not lose myself again. I might not be able to get back as easily. And yes..I am scared.
